Why You Should Stop Hating On Valentine’s Day- And Start Loving It


When I was a kid I would put a lot of work into my Valentine’s Day gift to my Mom. Why? In a lot of ways as a kid, she was the center of my universe!

I always loved V-day. Wearing pink and red, getting candy and valentines at school from my friends and flowers and jewelry from my Dad. Dad would often get my Mom a necklace or earrings and he’d get me a tiny little girl version to match. My sister and I were (and still are) his little loves. To me, Valentine’s Day was about LOVE. Period.

It wasn’t until I got older that I started to realize that for most people V-Day is dedicated to lovers; romantic love (or the lack of it). For this reason, Valentine’s Day can be a big fat ugly reminder that you are ALONE. With NO ONE to LOVE. I mean look at all the damn articles floating around:

How to Survive Valentine’s Day Single

Single Awareness Day offers Valentine’s Day Alternatives

Should Valentine’s Day be Banned in Schools?

How to Spend Valentine’s Day Alone

First of all, it’s just a DAY people, relax. YOU WILL SURVIVE IT.

Secondly, you’re not and have never been alone. You have a lot of love in your life! Don’t let this day and the way it is marketed fool you into feeling that because you don’t have romantic love at the moment, you are unloved. FALSE. So false!

Ok, granted, I have a boyfriend. But being single has NEVER kept me from enjoying the holiday! Have a dinner party with your single friends! Go see 50 Shades of Grey. Head to the spa. Go shopping. Whatever. Just don’t fall into the trap of making this day represent something that is negative or lacking in your life.

Last night a couple friends came over and we made homemade valentines. You know what I discovered? There are a lot of people I love other than my boyfriend. Who says you can only have one Valentine and that it should just be your bf/gf? Everyone likes to hear a quick reminder that they are loved!

Which brings me to pet peeve #2: Anyone who utters some variation of this line:

“We don’t celebrate Valentine’s day because he treats me like every day is Valentine’s Day.”

BARF. If that’s really true, wonderful. But while you’re at it, just don’t celebrate Mother’s Day or Halloween or any other holiday, because what’s the point, really?

My boyfriend treats me like a princess, but we STILL CELEBRATE Valentine’s day and you know why? Because like many couples, our typical night together is spent watching bad reality TV or sitting on our laptops talking about the newest cat video. And while I love our life, I would say that our average night together does not rate high on the sexy meter. Plus, we are both very social beings who love to work and are constantly on our phones texting and talking. We live together and that means we are part lovers, part roommates. Every day is not a scene out of The Notebook. #RealTalk. It’s nice to have a day to devote to making each other feel loved and happy. What’s wrong with that? Don’t want to spend money and contribute to our “consumer driven” culture? GREAT! Stay home and cook or go to the beach. It’s not about money, it’s about showing gratitude.

If you have a problem with V-day, my guess is it’s because you have been disappointed by it in the past. I get it. The truth is, I’ve never been disappointed by V-day and it’s probably because I’ve never put all my V-day hopes and dreams on a boyfriend. My parents still send me gifts and I still make heart cookies because the truth is, it’s not about any one person. It’s about love. Spreading it and receiving it. Even when you have that special someone, they cannot fulfill every hope and desire for you. That’s why we have friends and family and work and hobbies… There are a lot of components to happiness!

So please, this year:

Embrace Valentine’s Day. Write your Mom a love letter. Or your Grandma. Or your best friend. Smile more. Buy a box of chocolates and eat them your damn self. Or get them for that co-worker that always has your back. Look around and you’ll see, you’ve got potential Valentines everywhere.


What I Learned In 2014..And Every Year So far

When you fight with your loved ones, even if you were right, it hurts like you were wrong.

Forgiveness is a much lighter load to bear.

Listening to their small insignificant thoughts, watching the youtube videos they text you, laughing at their jokes: That’s how you make someone feel loved.

You will never regret over-spending on a gift for someone you love.

Objects are nice, but experiences are better.

Clothes and makeup can make you feel beautiful.

Back your sh*t up.

A flaky person is not a bad person, but it doesn’t mean you need to keep them around.

Partying gets old. So does staying in.

If you yell, you lost.

Best beauty tip ever? Drink more water.

Tiredness can feel a lot like depression in moments, and the cure is a double shot espresso.

“The best way out is always through.”

Your family will disappoint you. Get over it and love them anyway.

A great relationship is hard to find. Stop nit-picking.

Don’t expect to feel grateful all day every day. Moments of true gratitude are a pretty damn good start.

F**k the haters.

Fight for your friendships the way you fight for your lovers.

It’s ok to outgrow people.

The more you create, the less you care what people think.

Surround yourself with people you admire.

Money ebbs and flows. Don’t get attached; Don’t get down.

The route to happiness: busy yourself with what you love

“I’m sorry” could solve a lot of the world’s problems

Angels exist. Sometimes, in the form of Obama Care reps.

An un-jealous friend is one of the most precious gifts one can have.

People love peach Snapple & Chipotle. Across the board.

You won’t regret donating to that charity/crowd source. But you might regret NOT doing it.

Make a point to remember people’s names. “I’m terrible with names” is not a legit thing to say.

Facebook is not a great place to vent/argue/dis people.

If they are bad mouthing everyone to you, they are probably bad mouthing you.

Choose to be kind instead of right.

Saying “yes” = more adventure

One of the nicest things to give and receive is a heartfelt, handwritten letter

Want to achieve more? Get up earlier.

No one really has it together.

Time truly does heal all.

You don’t need to know what your life’s calling is.

If you’re not happy, it’s not worth it- whatever it is.

Eating healthier is easier than running miles every day.

“Carpe Diem” is a far superior rule to live by than “What’s meant to be..”

Happy 2015 ❤

5 Things You MUST Do This Month

I LOVE fall! October is my favorite month of the year; Halloween is my favorite holiday. I LOVE dressing up & I LIVE for scary movies. I’m well versed in this stuff, so here’s your October guide to happiness!

1: Whip Up Something Autumny 

I don’t cook. I’m not super domestic. But you can do anything when you put your mind to it, and when I DO cook–It’s usually not half bad!

Nothing reminds you it’s fall like a pumpkin spice latte or pumpkin pie.  How ’bout try something fun and different? Here are a few fun ideas to jump start those taste buds:

                                    Apple Cider Floats~Candy Corn Cookies~Pumpkin Cinnamon Rolls


 Parmesan Bacon Pumpkin Mashed Potatoes~Chocolate Pumpkin Pie~

And a Classic: Butternut Squash Soup


2: Get Your Scary Movie On


Grab a friend or your love, some popcorn (HERE are some delish popcorn recipes to try) turn off your phones and get started! Here are a few of my faves that I’m hoping, MAYBE you haven’t yet seen—based on your “scare level”:

If you’re NOT the bravest:  Cabin in the Woods,  Zombieland, Drag Me to Hell

If you can handle some dark s**t: VHS, The Orphanage, The Conjuring, Grave Encounters,  The Exorcism of Emily Rose, Evil Dead -The Remake

If you’ve seen it all: Martyrs

Also, check your local movie theater site. They probably have some classic Halloween screenings planned. This week at the Arclight Hollywood they are showing SCREAM!

3: Actually Dress Up

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Don’t be that lame person at the party with no costume. OR WORSE- That lame person NOT at the party!      :::::GASP:::::

Get in the spirit. Go out and get a costume, choose a group theme, a couples theme, or get creative with what you’ve got at home! Here are some fun ideas if you’re at a loss, and here are some game-changers.

4: Go to a Legit Haunted House


Grab your crew and go scream together! It’s a bonding experience. Here are a couple of my fave spots here in LA, but no matter what city you’re in, I guarantee there is something spooky and haunted to do a short drive away.


They say it’s the scariest, most awesome Halloween event in LA and every year sells out veeery quickly! I already got my tickets for the end of the month for this interactive theater/haunted house experience produced by the awesome Neil Patrick Harris, featuring LA’s professional actors and stunt people. You walk through in groups of 10-15 and this year they took over the Fitzgerald Manor in the West Adams district by USC. If you can get your hands on tix, you don’t wanna miss it!

Halloween Harvest Festival: The Corn Maze

My boyfriend and I went to get our pumpkins at this Pierce College spot, and I had read about their haunted corn maze and decided we needed to try it. NEITHER of us expected it to be as scary as it was! It is definitely heightened by the fact that being in an actual cornfield is eerie and creepy on it’s own! Head over, grab some food and a couple pumpkins and get ready!

The LA Haunted Hayride

This is an LA Halloween staple. If you haven’t done it, there’s nothing else like it. The line can be a bitch so I recommend getting there early! And if you’re afraid of clowns…good luck. This is the only event where you get to sit back and enjoy the ride.

Universal Horror Nights

You can’t beat Universal Horror Nights. You just can’t. I  look forward to it every year because it’s always different! I know it’s s ton of money, but if you can swing it, I’d recommend coughing up the $140 for the front of line pass. SO WORTH IT. The lines can get really crazy and there are 7 new mazes this year! How can you see them all if you spend the whole night waiting? Keep in mind- they’ve got the resources- so this event is pretty damn scary. And creatures are EVERYWHERE. They will stalk you if you are the scaredy cat- so don’t show TOO much fear!

5: Go to the Pumpkin Patch

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I know, I know. Ralph’s sells pumpkins. But that’s no fun! Head over to your local pumpkin patch and get in the spirit! They often have a variety of pumpkin snacks and sometimes carving workshops or cider! This year I wanted to have a variety of ugly, wart-covered pumpkins, but apparently everyone had the same idea because at my patch, they were all sold out of the ugly ones! I got a huge white one instead. Whether you have kids or are single, nothing reminds you of your childhood like picking out the perfect pumpkin! And don’t forget to ACTUALLY CARVE IT!  Here is some pumpkin carving inspiration

I hope you enjoy this month as much as I do! And as always, hook me up with some pics of your costume, pumpkins or culinary creations! Happy Halloween!


Facebook is not Your Personal Soap Box

When did Facebook get so damn political?

I can’t check out my feed without seeing people getting crazy confrontational about everything ranging from Beyonce videos to police brutality.

People have strong views, I get it. Great. But somehow in the last few months the growing sentiment seems to be that Facebook is not only a social site to share your vacation pics, but a platform that DEMANDS you express your contrasting opinion every opportunity that presents itself.  Not so much.

Every time something goes viral and gets some positive coverage, it seems that some people race to be the cloud that rains on everyone’s parade.

I’m sure you know at least one of these types. They are probably the friend that:

Mocked the hashtag, #BringBackOurGirls

Labeled Emma Watson’s speech “rubbish” 

Felt the ALS Challenge was a useless stunt

Declared that opting out of paying it forward at the Starbuck’s Drive-thru is just “good economics”

Think Aretha’s cover of Adele is an embarrassing auto-tuned mess

Argue that Ray Rice was unjustly demonized

Sound familiar?

It’s America, you’re entitled to your opinion.  Still- maybe that space to make a comment underneath someone’s status update is NOT the best place to air out your grievances and flex those debate skills from high school.

When the iconic Robin Williams passed, many argued over whether or not suicide is a selfish act.  I have always felt that suicide IS very selfish. After pondering and discussing this and coming up with clear points as to why I believe taking your own life is selfish, I realized that even IF I were to present a list of enlightened points, it would only MAKE PEOPLE FEEL LIKE CRAP. Why do I care about convincing everyone that suicide is selfish? How does that make the family members of a deceased person feel? If the thought that a suicidal loved one “took their life because they felt it was their only way out” is comforting and gives someone a sense of understanding, then who am I to come along and pick that apart for the sake of argument?

It’s not about who’s right. Is your opinion adding something valuable to the conversation? No? You just feel that someone needs to play devil’s advocate? Guess what-SOMEONE DOES NOT.

It’s not your job as a Facebook user to troll your feed for articles you don’t agree with. I’ve seen people get de-friended (which may be a good thing if 2 people can’t see eye to eye on what they consider paramount topics). But- isn’t Facebook supposed to be about connecting socially? I’ve seen people blatantly spew hate at other races, the opposite sex, our president, other political parties, the latest Disney movie… It’s gotten ugly.


Here’s my public service announcement:


If you want to have a serious debate about a serious topic, maybe consider taking it off Facebook? Maybe post that combative comment only when it’s something that you morally must say- not just for the sake of arguing. Know the difference. If you feel a charity driven challenge is stupid, maybe let people enjoy it anyway? Maybe if you DO want to engage in a debate on your feed, you keep it civil.  It’s beautiful to live in a world with a wide range of backgrounds, let’s be sensitive and not make Facebook the home of touchy contrarians.

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Your Fall/Winter Style Guide!

We don’t exactly have seasons in Southern Cali. Not everything on this list may be super sensible for your location, still, just because the colder months are coming doesn’t mean you crawl into a hole and only emerge in puffy coats and jeans.

When you know your outfit is awesome, you can’t help but feel hot! Take a risk, wear something out of your comfort zone and have fun with fashion. Here’s what I’m loving right now, where I shop and where you can snag the looks that are current, fun and sexy!

ENOUGH with the Black!

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Here’s some real talk: no one is impressed by your LBD. I know it makes you feel skinny. I know you think it’s classic and Coco Chanel was a goddess. I know what the magazines have told you.

When I see a girl wearing a typical black dress and heels to a night out/event/wedding I think: this is a girl that has no style. Or doesn’t care.  If I’m going somewhere I don’t care about, I too, might wear an LBD. (Doubtful, but possible.)

Black may be classic, but it’s phoning it in. Black is meant to hide and disguise, hence feeling skinny. Stop hiding.

Girl, put the black away. Pick a color that compliments your skin tone, hair, eye color and personality and I PROMISE you will get 10x more check outs and compliments.  Trust.

Hit up: Lulus, They always have a ton of color options!  And if you ABSOLUTELY MUST wear black, please don’t phone it in! Make it awesome like these, and pair it with some awesome shoes, jewelry and purse! Nasty Gal does black right!

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Athletic Wear


I LOVE the new trend of pairing boyish athletic pieces with the feminine.

I just bought an awesome varsity jacket from Forever 21. It’s maroon and black leather and I can’t wait to wear it with little dresses instead of a blazer. It toughens up something girly in an off beat way.

I’m also a big fan lately of throwing my white converse on with a cute dress. It’s a quick, easy way to be comfy and make it look effortless yet stylish.

Hit up: Forever 21 or Nordstrom, or for the super cool new Rita Ora collection, Adidas

2 Piece Ensembles

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The top part of everyone’s mid-section tends to look awesome! Too many tacos this week? No problem! Put on a high waisted skirt and a matching crop top and it’s a sexy alternative to a dress but flattering and oh so fun.

Hit up: BooHoo has tons of choices!

Knee High Socks & Tights

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I hate pants. They make me itchy, I wear dresses and shorts year round. BUT cold weather IS a thing.  SO…When I head east or up north to San Fran to see my family, I love sweatery knee socks from Free people. I have them in a ton of patterns and colors and then I can wear my dresses in the winter! I sometimes layer them with cute tights.

Cold weather + Style = Possible

Hit Up: Free People. Period.


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I’m so over bras. I realize chestier girls don’t have much of a choice, but I am obsessed with the jelly pasties you can get at Target and I wear bralettes from free people almost every day. I own them in tons of different colors and since they are pretty and colorful and lacey, it’s ok to SEE them peek out! PLEASE don’t be the girl in the racerback dress with the tacky bra straps hanging out for the world to see! You have OPTIONS, woman.

Hit Up: Free People. Again, no brainer.

Sexy Sweaters

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Fitted, soft, comfy! Lace or leather trim! Off the shoulder! Try it with a mini skirt to dress it up. Or try a cropped sweater with a high waisted skirt/pants. You got this. Colder months don’t mean sex appeal goes out the window!

Hit up: Urban Outfitters always has an awesome selection

I Still love Rompers!

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If you’re a girl that never knows what to wear and tries on a million outfits before going anywhere, simplify your life. Get yourself some rompers. They are an already complete ensemble.  I especially love them with pockets! Rompers are so cute, so comfy, so EASY! You don’t worry about them being too short because, they aren’t a dress, after all! They have a very casual look, which is what I like.  I own the black one above with the flowers (get it HERE) and it’s one of my favorite things right now! I get a million compliments and I can dress it up for going out or I’ll wear it to the coffee shop.

Hit Up: I just got this awesome romper from HelloMolly which is in Australia, a bit of a risky online purchase but it fits me perfectly and is so comfy and cute!  I’ll definitely be buying more stuff from them.

Coats: Keep it SIMPLE & SLEEK

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I rarely need a coat, but I have a couple awesome ones in my closet. The key with coats this season is keeping them VERY simple and very warm. Lately I’m not into a lot of buttons and zippers and prints. The more simple and classic your coat is, the more versatile it is! I hate putting together an awesome outfit for a Holiday party and feeling like it’s going to get ruined by the coat. If you get a coat that is in a neutral color a warm material and fits perfectly, it only adds to the look! Definitely a worthwhile investment! Don’t be the chick freezing on the street corner because you took the flimsy sweater that completed the outfit instead of a more substantial choice.

Hit Up: Here are a couple cool choices at Bloomingdales and Macy’s

Also check out: 


My little cousin, Sheila, sells jewelry for Chloe + Isabel and their stuff is rad. I especially like the Natural Luxe Collection. Great for gifts! A bit bohemian mixed with fabulosity.


Bloomingdale’s has an AWESOME new section that is trendier, younger and more affordable! It’s called Sunset + Spring and features super cool brands like Mink Pink and most pieces are under $100!

So there ya go! Go raid your closet before blowing a ton of money and see what you can add to your wardrobe that will fit into the family nicely! And please, hook me up with some pics of you going out, I’d love to see you rocking these fall/winter trends!

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Losing My Tia…


I found out on Saturday that my Tia Thelma (“Aunt” in Spanish) passed away.  She is actually my great aunt, my mother’s aunt, but was very very close to me my whole life because my Grandma died when I was a baby so she filled that role for me, for all of us.

The sadness comes in waves.  Sometimes I cry.  Sometimes I am mad at myself for sitting in her room the day before she died, watching “The Faculty” while she and my mom talked.  I am mad at myself for not singing when she asked me to on Christmas in that lunch room we were in.  I was like, Tia there all these people around us!  I should have just sung.  For the last time.  I know I shouldn’t dwell on that stuff.  I know peace will come with time.

We had a special Thanksgiving.  We always have holiday dinners at my house in San Francisco and all my relatives come over.  Tia stopped coming a couple years ago.  Mom told me it’s because her eye sight wasn’t so great these days and it was a lot of work for her to get ready and get picked up and spend time with so many people.  When I saw her at her home I said, Tia come to Thanksgiving!  All you have to do is sit there and eat.  That’s all.  She decided to come!  My cousin James came with me to pick her up and I did her makeup and combed her hair.  She told me that when I was a tiny girl I would say, “Sit down Tia, I’m going to do your makeup.” and back then my skills were questionable so I’d make her look like a clown.  As James and I helped her down the stairs to the car, it made me realize how fragile she was.  We’d come full circle.  So many years had passed.  Everyone was so happy to have her there on Thanksgiving.  It was so nice.

I went home to LA the next day and a couple days later my Mom called me and told me Tia had had a heart attack.  It wasn’t good and I needed to get on a plane.  By the time I was in SF she was in heart surgery.  They didn’t know if she’d wake up, didn’t know how it would go…  She did wake up.  They were very hopeful.  They said the surgery had gone great.  She needed to go to a rehab facility for a couple weeks to get back to walking and all that.  We were all relieved.  I was back to LA.  When I returned home for Christmas, she was in her rehab facility.  She did NOT like it and who could blame her?  Lots of elderly people, no privacy, bland food.  She wanted to go home to her little house.  I was with her the day before she died.  She said her chest hurt.  I hugged her and I said, “Tia, next time I see you, you’ll be feeling much better.  I’ll come back in a few weeks.”  She said, “Yes, next time you see me, I’ll be feeling much better.”  She passed away the next day from another heart attack after I had just gotten home to LA.

I went to the computer and there was the MP3 player my Mom had given me for Tia.  I was in the process of downloading a bunch of her favorite classical music for her to listen to.  She’ll never get to listen to her music.

Death is a very weird thing.  It is my instinct to be alone.  To deal with it privately.  I know that I need to be here with my family.  It’s all so sad.  It’s sad because I didn’t want her in pain and in that rehab center she hated.  I’m sad because I loved her so much and I just hope she knew.  I’m sad because she’ll never get to see me get married or meet my kids or live my wildest dreams.  I’m sad because my family is so sad.

Tia loved me so much.  When I was a little girl, she would give me anything I wanted!  I used to feel like a princess at her house.  I would cry when I left her because I felt so sad that she was all alone.  I know that she’s not all alone now.  She has her parents and her sisters and most of all, her best friend, my abuelita.  I just hope that as she watches the rest of my life unfold, that she’s proud of me.

Things I Love…

Things are going great right now.  I’m happy.  Still, it’s easy to self sabotage.  I’m not going to do it!  There’s too much to be grateful for.  Here’s my little list…Things that I love, that make me happy to be me and to be alive…  Just in time for some turkey!


Sunsets!  My cat’s little purring/snoring thing he does.  Dlisted.com.  Showing my boyfriend funny online videos at night and hearing him laugh.  Being home in San Francisco during Thanksgiving with my family.  Looking at dresses by Zuhair Murad and fantasizing about going to the VMAs and what I’d wear…Try it! Having a great audition where I walk away and don’t think about it for the rest of the day because I am at peace with my work.  Batkid.  Being a bridesmaid!  A really, really great movie.  (Just saw Kings of Summer– A MUST SEE!)  Bedtime Tea from Trader Joe’s.  Being a woman.  Being able to finally LET IT GO.  Jean jackets.  When your hard work pays off.  Not giving a fuck what they think.  Spending the day with your friends and realizing how lucky you are to have friends!  Dressing up.  Chanel.  The new chandelier I got for my bedroom!  Being in my 20s!  (Old enough to do everything legally but still young enough to make mistakes without too much judgement!)  Fedoras.  Cozy thigh high socks.  New Orleans!  Coming home and having a new episode of New Girl to watch!  Sleeping in!  Inspirational quotes.  Realizing you’ve healed because you forgot about it.  Breakfast for dinner!  The pistachio body wash I use (from Laura Mercier–the BEST!)  Feeling beautiful.  Holiday Victoria’s Secret commercials!  Halloween costumes.  Being told, “I’m proud of you.”  Wearing my boyfriends shirts to bed every night.  The feeling AFTER working out.  Warm chocolate chip cookies.  Not minding the traffic after a long day.  Knowing you made the right decision.  Being so happy you never married the first guy you thought you were going to marry!  My sexy new winter booties.  Sex and the City reruns.  Connecting with a total stranger.  Funny lists on Buzzfeed (Like this one HAHA)

What do you love?

We’re All Haters

We all know it-  when you put yourself out there, you will be judged. 1+1=2

Since I’ve been performing most of my life, I’ve also been criticized most of my life.  Do I take it hard?  Sure, occasionally.

I know that haters gonna hate!  But what about when your friends hate?  That’s much harder.  You want your friends to be there when you’re down, but in LA, sometimes it’s hard to know if your friends will be there when you’re up.  A lot of us are in the same game, the same rat race.  It’s hard to not compare yourself, even when you love the person.  But jealousy is an ugly ugly thing and it’s something I battle myself.  Still, it’s easy for me to be happy and proud of my friends that work hard, are passionate and grateful.

My friend Caitlin found out today that her show “Reign” on the CW just got picked up!  It’s wonderful news and I’m very happy for her because 1) she EARNED it 2) I know she’s grateful 3) she’s freakin TALENTED!  Woohoo!

I’m not saying I have friends that aren’t the above things.  But I do have friends that are in great positions that complain a lot.  That’s hard because I’m like, what are you complaining about?!  It makes me subconsciously distance myself from them because I don’t like having negative thoughts about my friend in my head.  Makes me feel like a raging bitch!  I’d rather be a sweet, supportive friend and person.

Today a friend told me that our friendship was poisonous to her and that she felt tired of supporting me and my career because she’s felt in my shadow forever.  Huh?  Do I think that’s ridiculous?  No.  Because that’s the chain of Hollywood!  We’re all jealous of each other!  Sounds terrible but the grass is always greener in Hollywood.  I have a few people in my life whose shine I feel eclipses mine, one being my boyfriend.  He’s with one of the biggest agencies in the world.  He has like 5 agents pitching and calling for him at all times.  He goes all over the world for his projects.  He makes WAAAAY more money than me.  He gets to meet on TV shows that I LOVE all the time and thinks nothing of it.  But- he’s also got 12 years on me and you know what?  He’s my biggest supporter.  He helps me create and fund a lot of my projects.

I asked him once if he felt very proud that he was living his dream.  He told me, “Mostly I just miss DJing.”  When he was trying to make it as a screenwriter, he paid his bills as a DJ.  He tells me, “You’re going to make it and it’s still gonna suck.  Because it all sucks!”  He makes me laugh.  He makes me dream big but also keeps me down to earth.

I guess what I’m saying is, we gotta all figure out how to be happy; how to be good friends and be proud of each other on our own.  It’s a process.  My intention is never to bring anyone down.  I don’t want my friends to resent me and I don’t want to resent my friends.  The happier that I am in my own life, the happier that I’m able to be for other people’s successes.  We’re all on our own paths, that’s what I always tell myself.

If I’ve learned anything since being here it’s that the battle is not just about booking this or that gig but enjoying the journey; finding happiness in the process.  That’ll determine if you’ll be happy once you get there!  Like a habit.  I’m working on making a habit out of being happy.  And I guess it starts with being happy for my friends.