I’ve been lucky in my life that I feel I have and have always had a lot of love. I’m close to my parents. I’m close to my little sister. I have friends that have been my friends for like 20 years. There are never enough hours in a day or months in a year to spend all the time I want to spend with all the people I love.
I got an email from a “friend” a month or so ago that ripped me apart as a person. It was super hurtful and plain mean. I wouldn’t say those things to anyone. When you get an email like that you think, oh my God, am I horrible person? Do I use people? Am I a raging bitch? My friends and boyfriend and sister were like, that email is bullshit. And then I realized: the email wasn’t just bullshit, it was wrong. I know me, and the truth is, I LIKE me. And the people I care about LIKE me. The people I don’t care about may not. But you can’t be a gold coin to everyone! Now if someone who was important in my life, like my best friend Aerie came to me and said, I feel like you’re being judgmental (which she HAS said in the past) then I stop and think and change. Because I love her and don’t want to ever lose her. But she would NEVER call me names. NEVER rip me apart as a person. And the truth is, she ACTUALLY knows me.
This might sound harsh, but no one needs a million friends. No one needs BAD friends. I for sure don’t. I had been distancing myself from that person who wrote me for months, knowing already what was later clarified. I don’t need ANYONE around me that feels threatened, jealous, hurt, angry etc… I know who I am. I work hard, I have SPECIFIC goals and I’m an artist. Life has enough challenges, your friends should only push you and encourage you, not add to your problems!
So maybe it was a great email. 🙂 Lesson learned.